To those of you that are brave and open enough to do this, I envy you. See, I am one of those that typically hides my emotion beneath a charming smile (unless it's anger, I can sometimes express that emotion far too easily, but I'm working on that). I've always been one to try to handle my shit on my own and I keep my negative emotion's bottled, hidden away--tucked neatly back into that dark space of my soul where no one else can see it...I don't know if it's because deep down I don't want to feel I'm putting a burden upon someone else, or if fear just keeps me from finding the right words, or if it's just trust issues with the world in general.
I can write fiction or fantasy all day long (can't promise it would be good, but I could write it). Ask me to sit down and write a simple paragraph about how I "feel"...and I'd be stumped. Perhaps it's not "stumped" as much as it is so many things would come flooding to the surface at once, it seems it would be impossible to recover one pearl of coherent thought from the tide.
But these blogs have me thinking, deep thoughts. Good and bad. These blogs have not only inspired so much creative expression within me...they have inspired the urge for emotional expression as well, a need to open up. A purging, a cleansing if you will.
I haven't quite worked up the courage to lay it all on the line yet, but I feel the tide rolling in.
Update: Oh, and I think I'm PMS'ing (look, that's personal...this could be the start of something good)
2 comments:
It's hard baring your soul like that, facing judgement from other people, but sometimes it's easier to deal with things once you put it out there...
Thank you so much for that input. I really do admire bloggers that can share such vulnerabilities without the fear of any judgement that may come. But I imagine, to do so can be quite therapeutic and healing. I hope I can reach that point.
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