Welcome To My Secret Spot
Ok, so it's not so secret--but it should be Top Secret Classified information-because I'm taking you through the dark, craggy, crevices of my dirty mind-sharing with you the sweet and the sordid thoughts, dreams, and stories that play themselves out in my head( and occasionally in real life). Sit back and relax--forget about the day's troubles and join my journey of debauchery. This blog is not for the kiddies, so if you are under the age of 18-be gone.
Monday, June 29, 2009
Tortured Words
Saturday, June 27, 2009
A Kiss
Becoming Me
3 Things
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Three things that scare me: | |
1: | Losing a loved one |
2: | Heights |
3: | Violent Storms |
Three people who make me laugh: | |
1: | Margaret Cho |
2: | Carlos Mencia |
3: | Kat Williams |
Three Things I love: | |
1: | My family |
2: | My animals |
3: | Writing |
Three Things I hate: | |
1: | Being lied to |
2: | People that can't drive |
3: | The smell of parmesan cheese |
Three things I don't understand: | |
1: | War |
2: | Politicians |
3: | Racism |
Three things on my desk: | |
1: | Pens |
2: | Pepsi |
3: | Camera |
Three things I'm doing right now: | |
1: | Filling out this survey |
2: | Watching TV (European Vacation) |
3: | Greening my aura |
Three things I want to do before I die: | |
1: | I want to own a new age holistic/spirituality center. (One day) |
2: | I want to do some extensive traveling, exploring, leisurely touring of the world. |
3: | Publish a book |
Three things I can do: | |
1: | Digital Art |
2: | Play the djembe |
3: | Web design |
Three ways to describe my personality: | |
1: | Demanding |
2: | Playful |
3: | Protective |
Three things I can't do: | |
1: | I can't whistle very well (sometimes I can, sometimes I can't...it's the wierdest thing.) |
2: | I can't do anything mechanically with cars (except check the fluids and pump gas) Yeah, I know that's not very butch of me lol |
3: | I can cook, but I can't *bake* worth a damn. Muffins, cakes, breads...are fire hazards when left to my charge. |
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Binaural Beats
The focus of meditation is to relax the body and mind so that we can open the door to the subconscious mind. It is while the brain is in the subconscious state that we can make positive changes that will manifest themselves in our daily activities, outlook on life, and improved interactions with people.
In order to get into a subconscious state, brainwave activity must be lowered from the high range of beta (12-20Hz) into the alpha range (8-12Hz). Alpha is a state of total relaxation but still with a certain level of consciousness and awareness. You can feel an alpha state of mind when you close your eyes and allow yourself to relax for a moment.
In normal meditation you try to relax and clear your mind to allow the brain to slow down. But this can be a battle if the mind is constantly racing with thoughts of all your daily problems. As a result you are never able to fully get into and maintain the relaxed alpha state, so meditation efforts are not as productive as they should be.
A binaural beats mp3 helps to achieve these objectives by coaxing the brain into the alpha state. It does this by creating a low frequency tone to synchronize both hemispheres of the brain to the frequency range of 8-12 Hz. This external stimulus is accomplished by listening to the specially designed binaural beats recordings while wearing a set of stereo headphones.
Maintaining a deep meditative state is crucial to get good results. The binaural beats recordings are sort of like training wheel on a bike. They help you get where you want to go more quickly and easily and without falling down.
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Thursday, June 25, 2009
Do You Know....
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
Silhouette
Monday, June 22, 2009
Blogthing: My Gift
Your Gift is Imagination |
You love to express yourself in many ways. You have a way with words and tell vivid stories. You love to be amused. You are good entertaining yourself, and other people find you hilarious. You're the type of person who finds staying happy easy. There's always fun to be had! |
Blogthing: The Jungle Test
You Are Intuitive |
You are very sharp and shrewd. You can see the best and worst sides of people. (This is true, but I'm trying to focus more on the better sides of people recently.) Right now, you are seeking peace and tranquility in your life. (This is also true, I'm *mostly* a calm person...but I want to transcend calm and be genuinely, and deeply at peace...unshakeable peace.) You are drawn to people who are passionate and deep. (This is unquestionably true for me, always has been. But I'm also drawn to people who can cut loose and just don't give a fuck sometimes-in a non-destructive way, of course). You feel like there are a few minor things in your life that need to be changed.(Yeah, like a minor correction to this one, there are a few major things in my life that need to be changed...one step at a time, one step at time). You take time before you react.(Not always, I have been known to jump the gun in the past. ) You allow yourself to explore your options.(Indeed, I do.) |
Sunday, June 21, 2009
Moonlight Stroll
I want to walk hand in hand with you
Barefoot along the beach
With a silvery, smiling moon
Gleaming high above
I want to draw you into my arms
As the rolling waves
Applaud the unfathomable depth of our love
I want to gaze at you endlessly
Just to see my entire universe reflected
In the shimmering pools of your eyes
I want to cradle your face tenderly
Breathe you into me
As the tides within us rise
Then a kiss, slow & deep—a consummation of two souls
I want to become lost in the vast ocean of “us”
As the waves behind us roll
Thinking of evolution, and this place where life began
I found eternity on this beach tonight
A kiss for every grain of sand
Saturday, June 20, 2009
Whispers 2
The whisper of the wind,
Brings you to me again
I can hear your voice,
I can remember your sin
It whispers
(whispers)
(whispers)
(whispers)
And it says my name
It's like you're calling,
Calling to me again!
That whisper is loud!
And it drowns!
It takes me away!
I'm lost in the memories,
Of another time and place
I know! I know!
It doesn't make sense...
But I hear you,
In the whisper of the wind...
Friday, June 19, 2009
Mezmerized
Do you have any clue how
mezmerizing
you remain?
You're a cryogenic
heart
attack
{encased in flame}
and laced with passion's sweetest secret name
spoken
and winding
icily
down the same backbone
that you freeze
with a fireburn hum;
to feel you breathe
upon my skin
is like a dream from heaven above
wrapped in an
aquamarine
pillar
of
flame;
"I am so in love with you"
becomes preferred refrain.
(There's something stuck in my head:
it's you and I.)
We must be the same,
for we have witnessed
candlelit displays
of come what may;
I will follow you
into the cold of daybreak
painted in shades of
midnight blues
and
velvet grays;
an instant in space
burns brighter than the jealous sun;
meteor showers keep us for hours
until our reservations are undone.
[pardon my wandering erratic mind]
[but that moment rests upon a pedestal within the halls of time]
[and Rembrandt's strokes fail to properly describe]
[the furnace depths that rest behind your frozen lake visage]
[that I can't help but ache to kiss]
I exhale
vapors
after taking time to warm your lips
that once purred with unsure frost;
now entwined fingers
cross hearts: a promise
to be lost
wholeheartedly
in thoughts of we;
Let us paint the music;
And dance, entangled...into the stirring melody.
Thursday, June 18, 2009
Whispers
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
A Tribute To The Hot & Steamy
Painting Life Into Her
Monday, June 15, 2009
The Terrace Part 2
I held your gaze, my steady smile and my eyes reassuring you as my fingers traced delicately up the center of your sex, your moist, lace panties clinging into the cleft between your lips, becoming trapped in the softness of your folds. I felt your body jerk ever so slightly as my fingers brushed over your clit, the thin lacey fabric of your panties lending a texture to my touch that made your thighs quiver. You break our gaze and glance around the room, sure that someone is watching and just saw you react that way…though, that possibility was starting to excite you more than unnerve you, I could tell you were beginning to relax as I felt your thighs spread a little further beneath the table, allowing free and unhindered movement of my hand.
I teased you beneath the table, wickedly enjoying our semi-public perversions…I curled a single finger behind the sheer front panel of your panties and gave them the most gentle tug, sawing the lace between your swollen lips, applying just the right amount of pressure to your clit as I hold you there for a moment—a muted, secretive gasp slipping from your lips. I feel your hips rolling almost imperceptibly, but I feel it baby…the way you push yourself against my grip, causing your panties to tighten and rub harder against your sensitive clit as your wetness slowly seeped, eventually soaking the lace in your creamy emissions.
My eyes rest, sparkling upon your beautiful face, my lips turned up slightly at the edges in a soft, seductive, perpetual smile as I release my grasp on your panties and slip my hand beneath them, cupping your sex possessively as my fingers melted into the molten heat pouring from within you…you rocked your hips forward and two fingers slipped into your depths, seeking the source of your fire. My fingers swirled, dipping and exploring, fingertips curling inside of you and scooping out your nectar to bathe and soothe your aching clit.
I could hear your breathing becoming quicker, more labored as you struggled in vain to deny the pleasure of my touch, trying so hard to maintain your composure as I tried so hard to unwind you, stroke by stroke beneath the table.
I could hear the softest sounds of your wetness as my fingers thrust deeper into you, scissoring inside you and making you feel impossibly full as the heel of my hand pressed deliciously into your clit, grinding into you as the tips of my fingers stroked every ridge, every velvet fold, every detail of your clenching sex…coaxing your wetness out of you and deliberately teasing your pulsing clit until it felt so tight, like a firm, juicy berry about to burst at the peak of ripeness.
Suddenly your thighs quake and you grasp the edge of the table, still trying your damnedest to retain your composure as your juices begin to flow, covering my fingers in a flood of liquid fire. I clenched my teeth to try to retain my own composure as I felt your walls rippling around my fingers, my nostrils flaring as it takes every bit of restraint I have to keep from scooping you out of your chair and shoving my tongue down your throat, or sweeping my arm across the table to lay you down and take you right here.
I stayed inside you until I felt your rhythmic clenching subside, until the luscious spasms receded, and slowly, reluctantly drew my slightly pruned fingers out of you, that perpetual smile still playing on my lips as I bring my fingers secretly beneath my nose to inhale the bouquet of my sweet flower. I kissed the tips of my fingers catching the faintest taste of your rousing essence and flashed you a wink full of promise of continuing our celebration behind closed doors.
I watched you with twinkling, amused eyes as you squirmed in your seat as I leisurely finished my glass of wine—I enjoyed watching you squirm, knowing that beneath the table you sit shrouded in delectable wetness, knowing that this little dinner….was merely foreplay. “Check please!”
The Terrace Part 1
We had arranged to meet for dinner at the exquisite 4 star restaurant “The Terrace” to celebrate your recent promotion at work. Executive marketing director. You sounded thrilled over the phone when you called to tell me, and I was thrilled for you. You had been working so hard to move up in the ranks and your well earned success was finally coming to you. Our reservations were at 8:30 but you texted me just as I arrived at the restaurant to inform me that you would be a little late…”Will b a few mins late. Dreadful business attire. Slipping n2 something else. Wait 4 me?”.
The hostess approached just as I texted back a quick “Of course, don’t be long” and clicked my phone closed. “Reservations?” she asked with that honey sweet inflection most hostess’s have. “Yes, I called for an
The restaurant was beautiful. Sparkling, immaculate crystal light fixtures hung like giant diamonds from the ceiling, though for their size, the lighting they offered was minimal. Perfectly pressed, pristine linen tablecloths covered every table…candles casting dancing shadows onto their surface. The ambiance of the room was dark, sultry, romantic.
I sat down at the table and took the initiative to order a bottle of wine while I waited for you to arrive—23 minutes and a glass and a half later you appeared. I paused mid-sip of my wine to drink you in, my dark eyes flickering, a smile forming at the rim of my glass before I sat it down on the table, enraptured by the sight standing before me. You were wearing a dangerously short black skirt that clung to your curves like a second skin. As if the length of the skirt weren’t tempting enough, a provocative slit up the side provided the most delicious glimpse of the top of your smooth, toned thigh. I felt my breath catch in my chest for a moment as my eyes continued boldly roaming over your frame, devouring you. Your blouse was a delicate, sheer black number with a low plunging neckline that showcased your cleavage perfectly, and the most subtle outline of your nipples was apparent beneath.
“Wow! You are looking positively scrumptious!” I exclaimed as I rose from the table chivalrously, hugging you then placing a gentle hand on the small of your back as I pulled out a seat for you, next to mine…rather than the cold, impersonal “across the table” kind of dining, I preferred dining with you as close to me as possible, it’s always been that way. I want, no, I need your presence near me, your mere proximity does something indescribable to me…you slid into your seat with the majestic gracefulness of a slick feline, you carry sexy so well. Your full lips spread into an ingratiating smile as an almost shy giggle escaped you and you averted your eyes to say “Thank you, I’m sorry I kept you waiting…it’s a special occasion, I just wanted to dress it up a little”. I slid into the seat beside you, returning your smile with a warm smile of my own “No apologies baby, it’s your night, I’ve would’ve waited as long as I had to in order to celebrate it with you”…with that declaration I leaned towards you and placed a lingering kiss on your cheek and whispered “congratulations” into your ear. You squirmed in your seat a little as the heat of my breath kissed your earlobe and another smile danced across my lips. I sat back up straight in my chair and poured you a glass of wine and then topped off my own. We sipped and talked as we waited for our server to appear, our body language, our smiles, the range of looks passed between us would tip off any attentive observer that you and I were much more than friends. Though, I didn’t really care who may be observing our exchange, I was lost in you…no one existed in my world right now, but you.
Dinner was exquisite. We picked at our food as the wine flowed freely, making lustful eyes at each other as we ate…feeding each other a bite here and there for the simple pleasure of watching the other take the food from the sparkling silver dinnerware—eyes locked as an electric passion was silently conveyed between us. Feeding each other is such a sensual, sexual act to me.
As we ate my hand would slip beneath the table and rest on your mostly exposed thigh, squeezing my fingertips into your flesh gently. I would smile as my fingertips fluttered lightly, tracing intricate patterns on your thigh and playfully reaching higher as you looked around nervously. “What are you doing?!” you asked, your voice thick with false indignation at the very same time your lips curled up in what you thought was a discreet smile. But I saw it, nervous though you may be…you were enjoying my secret explorations beneath the table—hidden, yet fully exposed to the other wandering eyes in the restaurant.
The only response I gave you was a wry, little smile…I was going to keep going, until you verbally told me to stop, and meant it or until….
You continued to pick over your food, trying to maintain an air of innocence above the table as my hand moved deftly upward beneath the table, a gentle, warm, flat palm against the inside of your thigh, urging them quietly apart. You shifted in your seat, nervousness gripping you once more and you squeezed your thighs shut, trapping my searching hand between them for a moment. I gazed into your eyes, my dark, adoring eyes speaking to you, urging you…coaxing you with the depth of desire in my stare.
I bit my bottom lip and gave my fingers a wiggle between your thighs, and slowly you released your grip on my hand, your toned legs parting as your reservations crumble beneath my craving. I watched your face closely as my fingers traced their way up your creamy flesh, your heat radiating so strongly that I could feel how hot you were before ever touching your sex. I smiled at you, picking up my wine glass with my left hand and taking a sip...in order to avert any suspicious eyes, or perhaps the excitement of the moment just had me feeling slightly parched.